I write this journal in the morning of 20 October, because last night I was not in the mood to write anything. I was not intending to write anything in the first place, but the thoughts accumulated becoming concern, I think? No idea actually, it was just kept lingering in my mind.

The reason why I decided to write early in this morning about yesterday was what I read on Haikyuu manga about Kageyama. Actually I got many things from other characters too, but for now, I am gonna focus on Kageyama only. Perhaps there will be a bit about Hinata and Kita.

In chapter 375 – Polishing, there are some scenes where Hinata got flashbacks about Kageyama. He was asked by his beach volleyball partner,

Doing everything so diligently, do you not get tired of it?

I was wondering about this, too. Since from the very first time I watched the anime, Hinata seems to own a great amount of energy, and it seems like he never wore out. He was being asked again, is volleyball more of like a hobby to him, and Hinata reminded of Kageyama from that question.

In his flashback, Kageyama always took care of his nails and always wrote on his volleyball journal about his own development. Hinata explains more, that Kageyama probably doesn’t even think about it as an actual effort, more of like eating food, part of his daily routine.

Hinata’s viewpoint about Kageyama reminded me of Kita Shinsuke, Inarizaki volleyball team captain. Referring to chapter 274 – Captain, Kita was explained as someone whose technical plays still lacking in experience, but he was always diligent. It was before Kita was appointed as team captain. But at the moment, Kita is confident, not the “I am the strongest player”, but more of someone who knows he will never screw up.

There was one thing Kita said that was impressed me a lot,

I don’t understand the point of being nervous.”

Basically, he wanted to say why would you feel nervous when you can do it normally during practice. What I got here about his life-principle is, you can do anything without being nervous if you already getting used to it. The point is to make those things become habitual, incorporate it into your daily routines.

I really found this fascinating. Both of them, Kageyama and Kita, played well, and always maintained tranquility. Both of them delivered a really good example of how maintaining small good habits can turn you into something big. When any of both played on the court, they always kept composure, and of course, for me personally, it is a good sample to do so.

I also want to note what perceives me about Kageyama and Kita. Both of them are resembling each other, but so different in the other side. I’ve mentioned their similarities before. In my humble opinion, Kageyama really loves volleyball to the extent of he probably doesn’t care about anything else except eating. He just wanted to play, play longer and more, and meet stronger opponents, which will be explained in the latter chapters.

While for Kita, I still don’t get it if he really like volleyball or he just simply does what needs to be done. One thing for sure, he loves daily routine, as he said,

Repetition, perseverance, and diligence, just feels good.

Kita Shinsuke, in Haikyuu Chapter 274 – Captain

I was really surprised when I read the post-time skip, Kita choose to be a rice farmer. Although people said that he does not have enough capability to be a professional volleyball player, but I think his leadership skills and his tranquility could bring him into something else. He really just does not have any ambition or jealousy. I admired this side of him, and am thankful to Furudate-Sensei to bring out this type of character that give me another perspective of life-decision. Both of Kita and Kageyama really inspired me a lot to keep my routines being done.

I know it’s late to write this kind of post, but better late than never, isn’t it? So, let’s jump out to the movies already. Disclaimer : I am nor a movie expert or had been watching all of movies from 2010s, I just want to share these movies are worth your time, generally.

Also I will not included any additional explanation for each movie, because well, yea, it would be spoilers! I will add explanation a.k.a my own personal opinion later if I’m in the mood bc I just kept thinking to write this post but no preps for now 😦

The Grand Budapest Hotel

Dunkirk

Darkest Hour

Mad Max : Fury Road

Marriage Story

Beautiful Boy

The Wind Rises

The Favourite

Gone Girl

1917

I was watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (2007) this early morning, 5 April 2020.

What I want to say in this post regarding this movie, is, it has the same circumstances with current situation, in my country.

Let’s say, the government are too scared to accept the fact, that, we are currently in a dangerous situation. It is the very same within this movie, the ministry of magic could not accept the fact, that the Dark Lord, a.k.a Voldemort is back since the ending of Triwizard Tournament event.

Instead of preparing themselves to defense, the ministry of magic tried to stir the public sentiments saying Harry Potter told lies. That’s also happened today. The government told us that this virus ‘perhaps’ could not stand long in this tropical weather, as we are coming into dry season.

And the most important one, the government is still not taking firm actions regarding this pandemic. My anxiety has been culminated, that I wanted to burst out, and as expected, bursts it out here. I am so confused with what to do regarding my safety and my families’.

I wanted to go home, because the government ‘allows’ it. But in the other side, the official religious organization said we are not allowed to do so because it would bring harm either to ourselves or our loved ones.

The government only issues the suggestion to stay away from people and do not flock each other together. Just like what Dolores Umbridge did in Order of the Phoenix, she issued the decree for Hogwarts students to stay away each other 6 inches.

Well, the history repeats itself, but in this case, we should have learn from a fiction book.

Today is the last Saturday in March 2020. It has been a tough time, with indefinite ending. I fall into the slump recently because it is really hard to maintain productivity while in self-quarantine. I even missed the sunshine, but too scared to go out because of this pandemic.

I found out this video, which perhaps could explain why it was very easy to me to waste my time doing unnecessary activities. Those activities I consider ‘unnecessary’ are watching kdramas and kmovies, watching youtube videos, playing games, scrolling over social medias, and etc. I was anticipating the short-term reward that I would get after doing such things, pleasure. And I keep craving for more, which set my dopamine level into casually high.

To reduce the dopamine level, you have to do dopamine detox. The way it works is the same with treating someone who is addicted to drugs. Basically, you still will do those unnecessary activities, but you have to reduce the intensity or the amount of the activities.

So I’ve come up with the list of activities that I want to do dopamine detox on, those are :

• watching movies or series
• watching youtube videos
• playing games on phone
• scrolling over any social media platforms
• eating junk-food
• listening to music

I am still figuring out the concrete way to implement this, but for now, I would do dopamine detox twice or three days a week. In each day, I would not do any of those things and try to be productive as much as possible.

It has been a while since I did my first internship, and I just did my internship seminar last Wednesday. I am currently struggling on doing my report revision, so I decide to write this post otherwise.

I was working in a company that provides data monitor and analysis services. One thing that I worked on was sentiment analysis. Generally, sentiment analysis is you build a machine that can automatically classified public opinions and commentaries into positive, neutral or negative sentiment. I used Tensorflow and Keras python libraries to build this machine.

Ignore the technical details, I would tell you what I learned from this experience. I remembered vividly I was very anxious before this internship started. I was afraid I could not do well and get people in company disappointed, but it turned out to be a challenging experience. At first I knew nothing about machine learning (I was settled only on artificial intelligence course, didn’t take machine learning course!), but I got so many lessons about data science, data engineering, and data analysis, and why jobs around those fields are so popular these days. It’s all about data!

And of course, people are helpful. Most important thing that I forgot was, if I brave enough to ask for help, people will help. It’s okay to feel doubtful, anxious, or hopeless, at first, but you have to do something to resolve those feelings. And in this field, one thing that I find out very important to tackle those feelings are the ability to ask out for help. Knowledge and information are flowing dynamically and rapidly. There is no way you can master those all by yourself, unless if you collaborate with others. I am still trying to master that one skill, asking for help at the proper time.

P.S. You also refers to my own self. No intention to nag on anyone ^^

It is 31 January 2020. I have one goal, to write one post each month in this blog. I had several ideas to write, but, it was just hard to write. My friend told me to write about my internship experience. This topic would be noted.

I was just watching a movie, titled 1917. It is still fresh in my mind, so I decided to write a hasty review of this movie. Perhaps you would want to watch it, too??

1917 is the first ever movie I’ve ever watched by the World War I theme. I would not want to tell the story here, but it was very well-captured, and of course, very well-wrapped.

One thing I got from this movie was the persistence of the main character, which was, a corporal. The persistence to do “his job” (I will not tell you, this will be a big spoiler!) was amazed me. Basically I would say the story was a little bit ordinary. But, the way the movie conveys the story, and of course, the cinematography (the staff used one-shot technique, which is insane!) were awesome.

It was hard to compare this movie with other movies with war theme. My top war movies are Dunkirk and The Darkest Hour, and both of them are really, really great. But this one, it take special place deep in my heart!

I would not be dare to tell more about this movie, but if I want to recommend you, this movie is great. This movie taught me a lot about persistence, and perhaps, loyalty (?).

Dunno how to wrap up this post, so I will end it here.

After getting some boosts from a small talk with a friend, I decided to make a general list of fields in computer science and software engineering. I got this list from this blog, so there will be a chance this list gonna be developed in the future.

In the previous post I wrote I would create a tree. But somehow visualizing tree is difficult, so I will just make it a list. Then detailing it later for each item in the list. Here we go.

• data structures
• algorithms
• system programming
• source code version control
• build automation
• automated testing
• problem decomposition
• systems decomposition
• communication
• code organization within a file
• code organization across files
• source tree organization
• code readability
• defensive coding
• error handling
• IDE
• API
• frameworks
• requirements
• scripting
• database
• languages with professional experience
• platforms with professional experience
• domain knowledge
• tool knowledge
• languages exposed to
• codebase knowledge
• knowledge of upcoming techs
• platform internals
• books
• blogs

I know this list is very overwhelming, but I do really think I should have tracked my skills and the levels just to make it easier and fun and encouraging to learn. So many things to learn, but isn’t it fascinating?!

so I  have been so burned out with my life lately, so I decided to write a review of an app that help me sorts out what should I do, what I am doing currently, and what I have been done.

Trello is a software application which you can access through app in your smartphone, or website. It helps organizing your plans and projects, somehow, in a flexible way. I personally use it as a planner for personal academic and group project.

Yea I know many of you perhaps have known this application, and also many of you have reviewed it too, but I find it very useful as I have tried so many productivity/planner application before. 

Here it is. You can create a lot of boards, each board represents a plan or a project. In each board, you can also collaborate with other users, or use it only for your personal planner or productivity tracker. 

For each board, you can create a lot of lists, which can represent anything. As for agile software development technique, commonly there are three lists for it. Those are, to-do list, currently-doing list, and done list. Erm, actually I have to reassure myself about this agile things again later, but generally, that is the idea of agile.

For each list, you also can create a lot of cards, which represent tasks you or your group have to do (in to-do list). You can move those cards to other lists just by dragging it (and you must have authorization to do it!). So yeah, it is very fun because you can define everything by yourself (read : very flexible!).

In the home page there are reminders for cards that you are currently doing in collaboration projects. Before I forget, in each card you can add card description, labels, members that you collaborate with while doing this task, due date, checklist, and attachment. 

Erm, I do not know what to say now so let’s end it here ^^